Twenty Four


I'm twenty four today!! <3


Not gonna lie but I'm definitely, definitely SO MUCH HAPPIER now than last year. In all honesty, my birthday last year was a bit of "just an ordinary day of being stressed at work", if it wasn't for my brother who I met and spent time with at a cafe after work. My 23rd birthday write-up was filled with doubts and unhappy thoughts, no matter how hard I tried to conceal it, because I know you guys could tell based on the comments you left. At 23, I was in constant phase of being lost and of having doubts of what I'm doing with my life, thus, hitting rock bottom and experiencing a quarter life crisis. I know that I constantly express that experience over and over but if you've been through it and you've surpassed it, you'll get me. And you'll be so proud of yourself for staying strong even if it would just take a snap before you break into a million pieces.

I guess what I'm trying to say is that I went through so much last year which greatly affected my life and I am just so proud of myself for trusting the Lord with His plans even though it was extremely difficult because today, as I turn 24, I know that better things are coming ahead and the decisions I made last year, of quitting and giving up, and of starting a new career adventure, are definitely worth the struggle as I am exceptionally HAPPY now!

Honestly, for the past years, I don't feel like celebrating my birthday. My special day doesn't feel special though I am very grateful for being blessed with another year, and I don't know why it always felt like just an ordinary day passing by but people notice me. However though, this year, I'm planning to make it special and I hope that this thing that I'm planning would leave happy marks on people's hearts because I AM SUPER GRATEFUL for what is happening with my life right now and I want to have a purpose. I'm hoping for the best. <3

Quoting my 22-year old self because it still applies up to this day,

"And to all the people who have hurt me, encrypted pains and heartaches, and to those who hated me for being who I am, thank you. You helped me be strong and helped me love myself more. To all the people who supported me, believed in me, and loved me for who I am, I am extremely grateful. And I can't thank you enough."







P.S. Happy 18th Birthday to my {baby} youngest brother!! I love you! <3

RaeAbigael

Rae Abigael J. Caacbay is a young creative who went through a quarter life crisis by the end of 2016. Though she's still lost, she keeps on moving forward anyway as a ballerina, visual artist, lifestyle blogger, and a BS Interior Design graduate based in the Philippines.

73 comments:

  1. Oh dear!!! Happy borthday... ❤❤❤

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  2. Oh Rae, what a nice post. I'm so happy that you're doing better this year than last. Yes, I do know a thing or two about heartache, and yes, the people around us in our every day lives can be awful sometimes. Thank you for reminding me to keep trusting in the Lord. And a Happy Birthday to my new blog friend. I hope this year will be a great one for you. : )

    ~Sheri

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    1. Hi Sheri! Thank you! And I'm glad that I reminded you of trusting the Lord. You don't know how much that means to me <3 And yes, sometimes people around us affect us in a way that make us struggle so deeply that sometimes break our self-esteem but there are also those people who help us and support us so it's better if you let those kind of people be around you =) Thank you so much again new blogger friend! <3

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  3. Oh hey, Rae! Happy birthday! I hope you had fun and wishing you all the best that your heart desires. Cheer up! *hugs* ♥


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    1. Thank you so much, Cielo! *hugs back

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  4. Oh I am happy to read that feel a lot better this year than the previous
    My best wishes to you darling
    Happy Birthday~
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  5. Happy birthday!! I hope you had a great birthday party!

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  7. Very inspirational post, sweetie! Happy belated birthday! xoxo

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  9. Happy birthday darling! I blow a 1000 of kisses for you! I follow you, can you follow me back? ♥

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  10. Glad to hear you're feeling a lot better this year. Good luck on your journey, and Happy Birthday:) Stay strong.

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  11. Happy bday! all the best for you!

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  12. Happy Birthday Rae! I hope you have an awesome day!

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  13. Yeeeey - All the best ! Shine like a diamond all time <3

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  14. Happy birthday! Wish you all the best! xx

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  16. Happy Birthday babe! Hope you had a wonderful day! X

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  17. Happy Birthday dear.
    Kisses!

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  18. Thanks a lot :D

    happy b-day my friend. hope you had an amazing day <3

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  19. Hope you had a stunning birthday.

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  20. Happy Birthday cutie, its my boyfriends birthday today, so we will also celebrate :) I wish you all the best from the bottom of my heart, hop you had an amazing day dear <3

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    1. thanks melina and happy bday to your boyfriend as well ;)

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  21. Happy B-day! Have a lovely time and be super succesful in blogging <3

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  22. We all have crises and questionings, part of life. But it is much better to go through it and then feel proud of ourselves.
    Happy birthday, may your 24 years be incredible and full of achievements! ♥

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  23. Have a lovely birthday!!

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  24. Happy Birthday darling, enjoy this year! The mid 20s are the best! xx

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  25. Happy birthday darling!!
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  26. Happy Birthday! Wishing you all the best :)

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  27. I'm happy to hear that this year your birthday was much better that the year before!
    happy birthday, dear!
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  28. aw, happy birthday to you! it sounds like you're at a way better place than you were and I wish you the best 💕

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  29. Happy birthday! I hope you had a lovely day! :) xx

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  30. Happy Birthday! I hope you had a lovely time

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  31. Hello, I am so glad you are feeling better this year. Happy Birthday to you. I hope you have a great new year, filled with happy thoughts and plans. Enjoy your day!

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  32. Happy birthday beautiful Rae ! Kisses :)

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